Day in Starbuck, Boaders, Queensbay Mall

Recently my house line suckS. Well today is same. Feel boring and disappointed siting at home.Suddenly feel want go out have a walk.... After short time of thinking where should i go, i decide go to Boarders in Queensby mall for online... Without wasting time i went to prepared. After prepared then i only remember that i have no cars to drive. Once remember that i lye down on bed with depress feeling~

Around 15 minutes of travel i reached. Maybe u all wonder how i go QB.... I cycle go~ so tired with those laptop and equipment on my back. Zzzzzzz... Really heavy when cycle up the hill XD

In starbucks i call a coffee to drink which cost me around RM13++ haiz.... my money just flew away like that. While i onlining, i was thinking a lot of things. What i did tis holiday? Stay at home and being a 宅男... 2 months of being freak~ What else i did? Nothing!!!!!! I just realise how i wasted those pricious time. zzzzzzz~

What else i did? Every night stay till quite "early" b4 i went to sleep. Doing what ne? Reading those useless novel and comic... Haiz.... what i can do? i like those things. and my house line will only be good at night. That is 1 of the reason y i go outside to online.

Almost 2 weeks time i have a strange nightmare. I was walking in a dark place and i only c a road. Bside that is all dark. Walking down the path is a juction.... 3 different path for me to choose.... i stand there and i duno which road to choose.... At that time my body start to trembe and sweating.... I start to feel scare. That is a feeling that there is something chasing from the path i walked b4. I look back.... The path that i walked was replaced by darkness.... B4 i can run or doing anything i fell to a dark hole.... falling falling and non-stop falling till i wake up from that nightmare.

What do this nightmare want to tell or inspire me? Till nw i havent figure it out. And this nightmare hunting for days le.

Well bside these few things then i totaly do nothing in these holiday.

Morning of 20 and 21 of May

Morning... Once i wake up, my mom will ask how is the real results? Will u pass the grade?
How i going know that?

This thing happen once i get the notice that i get another 2 "lulus bersyarat" in this sem. What the? I still thought i will at lease pass... But at the end... No pass!!

My major GONE. My happy sem GONE since next sem start. I try my hard le, at lease harder than 1st sem... But what i get the worse results than 1st sem. FXXX I in the middle of the road to hell....

Evrything GONE GONE GONE

呆

现在都1点多早上了。。。 我面着电脑已有2，3个小时了。
呆在电脑前面2，3个小时。。。 从我知道我的成绩到现在。。。
我的头脑一片空白，我不知道我要如何去解决我的心结。。。 成绩的心结。

可卉姐，谢谢你对我的信心。真的很谢谢你 试着帮我解开这个心结。
我觉得 当我有问题的时候，你都一直在线的 XD

Joanne.... Very glad that u ask about it. Mayb u don noe what happen and duno how to help u.
I feel very happy that u ask me and care me about it.. Hehe... I think time will help me to recover my pain.

又不知道我接下来的发呆要到几点了。。。

最糟糕的一天

咳~ 很伤心。。。 很生气自己。。。
拿到最令我想不到的成绩与最差的成绩。。。咳~
我都不知道要如何去面对我接下来要面对的事实了。

回家告诉了家人。。 哥哥用个 “你自己好自为之” 的眼神看着我。。。
妈妈责骂了我一顿。。 还问我会不会留级？ 我要如何回答。。。
我自己也不知道我会不会留级了。

我的懒惰害了我，我又能自己怨自己。。。 真的好无奈。
进了自己的房间，我竟然留下眼泪。
我第一次这样担心我的成绩，这样为我的成绩感到伤心。。。

我真的不知道要如何去面对了。。。

雨天

最近 我这里下了几场雨。。 你那儿的天气又如何呢？

雨天让我想起了你。。。
在我们打完蓝球走路回家时，上天下了一场雨。。
我拉着你的手走快点。 我当时的心情是很开心的。。。
不过还是被你的好友嘲笑了一顿。。
也是同一天 我对你的暗恋被你的好友揭穿了。
开始了我慢慢地靠近你，追求你的生活。
我的生活也因为你的存在而改变了。

雨天啊。。。
你记得我们有次在家的附近的巴士呆着
那时候 伯母也在一旁
让我的行动受到了约束。。
我感到很泄气，就淋着那场大雨走回家了
我不知道为何，直到现在我还是不清楚
为何当时我要。。。淋雨走回家。

现在的雨天，
我不在一个人度过，
我有你陪我过。

谢谢你，陪我到现在。
我爱你，老婆。